letter to self

hey, Elijah

i find it beautiful how curious you’ve always been. how the cosmos became your first friends and continue to show you the aesthetics and complexities of this world. i’ve watched you stumble more than a hundred times, and that still hasn’t stopped you from believing in the gay of living. sure, you’re searching for joy; creating emotional connections with your family, securing a healthy autonomy, rebranding your artistry, having your first romantic relationship, and the commitment to contributing positively to society. all of this is possible if you choose to plant yourself in fresh soil (restart), participate as a vessel of light by actively healing your traumas and being present enough to awaken your potential of being your best self. you turned 27 five days ago and that’s a long time considering where you’re from. still in your small town home with a new job to hold, there are blessings in divine order on the way. at any given day look at yourself in the mirror and chant these words: i am not in vain for there is more to me than my pain. i love you.